It looks like I have not been blogging for quite a long time. Maybe because I do not have like a totally free time to blog as long as I want to as I only get in between breaks most of the time. I do have things I want to say out, but who can I really approach? No way my family is going to be involved in this. He's the only one that know the other side of me. And my really really trustable friend :') Who else can I really rely on? I'm clueless, totally.
There are many things that happened these days. conflicts, problems and such. I have so much to say but I'm still not sure where to start with. I always have something on my mind but I just dont know how to start it since there are many things I want to say. I shall start listing them out.
1. school
there's so much happenings in school currently.
First of all, academics and my class. After listening to the subject briefing, I feel the stress and tension coming to me. Especially for language and humanities subjects that I can't do well. I'm really worried since by looking at the overview, this year's syllabus is way more difficult and tougher as compared to last year. I'm scared, worried that I might fail. I can't bear to fail LA as I have to pass it in order to be promoted. Furthermore, I don't want to end up in the A class. I want a good class, at least top 4 or 5. I have to work really hard but honestly with the minimal amount of time i have and the teachers my class got, I'm REALLY WORRIED. How are we able to pass through this year? Look at the teachers, every lesson they're the ones that are wasting lesson time instead of us. See so much of our actions for what? It's not like you don't know our class is very HYPER. It's just a small action like drinking water, you also have to ask 'why are you drinking water so many times and you're not talking? I'm the one who is talking and I don't have to drink any water.' and then always look up. Spoilt kid since young uh?! Look down on us?! WTF? you can drink, it's just that you don't want to drink in front of us. every lesson also must scold, 1h lesson, 45min can be used for scolding, then during lesson will talk, ended up like 1h lesson became 5-10min lesson. we have to pass LA to get promoted and yet..... UGH. and you still have the fucking guts to say that if we fail, we're going to get it from you?! well, senior citizens. what can you say.
Next up, social life. I seemed to be drifted away from friends sometimes especially when on social networking sites and stuff because I'm really really busy, I don't have time to complete my homework before 11pm. Yes, I agree on people saying I take too much time to do stuff coz I over-think. I really dislike this.
And also for my CCA! Well you can see that it's pretty obvious that some other sections can bond quite well, and we're here so separated. And I don't see any of them having the attentiveness, the hyper-ness at all. They are all seem to be dreading. I'm pretty jealous of other groups that can bond well unlike us. Can't you guys be more active and take the initiative to contribute more to your own activity? You can't even get out of it so you should make full use of it INSTEAD OF COMPLAINING EVERYDAY. And just because I'm closer to the others, you guys can't do your own stuff? Do you have to ask me everytime that where is this person because you need her to return you something. CAN'T YOU ASK YOURSELF? it's not one time, BUT EVERYTIME. It's your own stuff so you should carry your own responsibility don't you? Now I know why people dislike you now and then. You have to ask everyone to do everything for you, and there's many other else. You don't have to act blur. DO YOUR OWN PART. We don't have to help you do everything, you should DO IT YOURSELF. What an insensitive girl. not one but few.
