inspirations

common test is just around the corner, and i'm pretty much preparing myself for it.

was taking a break from studying so i happened to get to a friend's blog. Kind of inspired by it. Posting notes for each subject, and also normal blog posts on how you feel etc (like a normal blog).

i think i shall do this too!

but i kind of don't like how i will share my blog link with others, im kinda worried. well i really expressed how i feel here and no one knows it. you may think differently but that's really how i feel. i don't know, maybe because i don't show them on the outside.

i may look happy all the while, but deep inside, i sometimes wonder why am i like this. always happy, and never once sad. and that's why people don't believe me that i feel depressed when i failed a subj since i still smile in class when i know the marks. it's like im feeling sad in class, but my face does not show it out. im not even smiling but you guys say i am. oops.

anyways, i should really try it out. blog about notes. hope that hard work can really pay off this time round! :) 3.5, im coming!

super worried for geog. any oldies that can help me :>

and still contemplating whether i should really give out my blog address.

hmm.

stressed out.

common test is this upcoming week. I'm totally not prepared. I have not been scoring well for the practice papers and I really doubt I can do a good job this time. My mind is confused, I don't know where to start with, I don't know what I should do, I don't know what I can do. I'm lost......

So far this has been the only time that I get stressed out so much since my language arts is just right on the passing mark, and I failed geography timed practice.

I admit that I did not study for it, but still..? I studied some, but not everything. I blanked out on the spot that I could not think of the points for the political and social impacts. I was freaked out. I did not know what I should write. I don't know.

History is also one of the subject that I'm worried of. SBQ is tested this time round. You can't really study for it. and we have inference, comparison, reliability and drawing conclusion to do in 1 hour. YES ONE HOUR. how?? how to complete? no i can't. I lost my confidence in some subjects. I studied hard for it, and yet I failed. ((not referring to history here))

I lost confidence in everything. Did not practice the piano for about a month, neither for other instrus. I have a little amount of time for it but I just could not bring myself to do it. I don't see any point of practicing or doing anything else.

I'm not prepared for this test... No im not prepared. it's the base mark of my streaming. I can't flunk it, but I just couldn't make myself to really study hard for it. I lost the confidence. It's always fail and fail and fail for me. at least a 3.47 GPA please?

shall go back to studying. I really hope that I can score well this time. I've started mugging since a month ago, everyday night staying till at least 12:30am to revise. I really hope I can see success this time round x

still stressed. Seeing some good friends around me are mugging all the while. hardcore muggers. We help each other, but still I don't have any confidence in winning them or even reaching my own expectations......

Nights

I cry over sadness all night. You guys don't listen. Especially you. When someone asks you a question, you can not answer, finding excuses such as you don't know, you didn't see it. However, this is false. But when you ask us a question, we must answer it. if not you'll fucking rage at us. i don't care anymore. I don't. Rage all you want. Too dumb to realise arent you.