huibao's over and im pretty sure i didnt do well. i still have horrible stage frights when there's a solo. i tried my best not to be worried about the audiences and just be engaged in my own musi but apparently i can't. my fingers kind of froze during some parts so basically the song was stopped for like half a second to one second.
not once, but thrice. sigh i know myself well that i have to improve on this but its just that i cant do it. i dont feel any confidence in me. sometimes i mau even look up at the audience when playing which kind of distracts me. but... i just cant stop it.
its really horrible to be having this habit of looking around no matter how serious the situation is. i just cant help it. i will be really grateful if anyone can help.. pretty please?
i always feel the stress coming onto me and the amount is overloaded. i just have this mindset that the only thing i can do is perform perfectly. that's all. im scared that i will let others down especially the teachers and the seniors.
of course nobody likes to be criticized and will like positive feedbacks. teachers and seniors are there to help us, and that is why im afraid of not able to reach their expected standard for me. especially seniors i always remember their words and i can never forget... once i was depressed for the whole week and did not feel like talking to anyone. i just felt that i rather be left alone...
really wanting to be a better performer, and of course, be myself.
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