oh the wake from death

pain pain pain T_T the cousins brought me to see a chinese practitioner yesterday which was PLAIN TORTURE.

practically freaked out when i was told coz that two words are just giving me fear.  i followed my brother to one when i was p4 or p5 coz he injured his ankle ((whoa we came for the same reason)). even he cant tolerate. i was laughing at him when he came out with crutches back then, and now its me? ._. never thought the day would come to me..

tried to relax but i was really really worried after being told what that dude might so :> sigh// if i didnt get into accident on the court that time i wouldnt have so much problems on my body now :/

pfft. im that kind of person that is really really scared of pain. i cant endure pain. //bows down to those who can endure all the way without screaming, crying etc// 我真的很佩服你们！！-salutes-

the moment i walked into the room i felt so tense orz. partly i was alone and it was so a w k w a r d. was asked a few questions but i directed all to bro haha oops. since it was my virgin experience he hit once to see my tolerance level and how hard is he supposed to use LOL. one hit and... :/ nearly jumped out of the bed OTL. and he claims that im like one the the weakest person he has ever seen 😅 i probably embarrassed myself badly, as he had to call kor in to pin my leg down bc i keep on moving it and i cant endure it .-. it felt weird....and its like a stranger touching you everywhere...... oh the electroplating thing was scary .-. electroplated my legs ouch. i was wondering is that how people get electric shock.__. it wasnt needed at first but well bro took in that dude's idea so...more suffering. plus ok at first it was only my right ankle only but then he went to check my left leg also and claims that my hamstring is very stiff and tight so bro allowed him to do something about it D: wtf man do you know how strong or how buff you are h you use your dominant hand's elbow and zam right on the back of my inner knee WTF DO YOU KNOW HOW PAIN IT WAS?! what did i do to deserve this ==' oh and then my back. wah never doing this again man. the awkward thing was that he said my skin is so white LOL and even my cousins said it too 😓 my back is literally full of red marks everywhere hurhur and some kind of turn into blue-blacks 😨 

but i was kind of glad that i couldnt smell the oil they applied on me coz i was having blocked nose 😂 but afterwards when i could smell it, oh gawd, horrible.

i swear that practitioner is damn cruel omf brutal forces applied -__- the moment it ended i was so glad :'D but i fell off the bed when i tried to get up LOL the pain when you fall onto the ground 😂 and never look down on crutches being an obstacle to walk oh god it helped so much. then when i was walking with it to the carpark with the bros then the passers by just stared at us 😂😂😂

overall, it was a bad experience >< i think i practically screamed throughout the whole thing, how i wish the room was sound proof 😩 so painful and yet so sore 😖 but as much as i dislike you guys for bringing me there, i'll still respect your decision and go for it no matter what. z i still dont like yall for making me go there but still, you guys are the loveliest brothers i can ever ask for. ((i know you're reading this but oh well dont talk to me about it please it just scares me)) 

i had hallucinations when i slept yesterday night 😰

massages and whatever arent luxury at all its just torture